I'm early today. I have only been sleeping for four hours, including restless times. I've been fighting fatigue this weekend, reason being I have been going fishing. It has been enjoyable ones cause my brother-in-law's families are all there. It was all very kecoh with the kiddies around, playing, fighting and beneath it all, just having fun and relaxing our mind.

Went Labrador park to fish on Friday night. Last night was at Bedok Jetty. Before going there, went to have lunch at Beach Road. I saw this mat rep which fcuking looks like Izwan man. Only he's more hotter and his hair was dyed bown and he have tattoos at his lower leg. Woo, I loike. Then we went East Coast to actually try out the roller-blading there, but we arrived late.

Blame the weather for making me sleepy instead of staying up late and enjoy the fishing act. I can't resist the temptation to sleep although the only place to sleep was on the ground. It was windy and I could just freeze to death man. I texted B till I felt asleep and I was quite surprised when he still can wait for me to text him back at 4-5 am when he could actually sleep, especially last night when he should be getting some rest when he worked his balls out yesterday.

Went to have our very very early breakfast at 5 am just now at Tampines' Restu. I am currently going to the toilet back and forth cause of the spicy but very delicious curry I ate just now. Heeeheee. Lol. Am supposed to be catching up on sleep but I haven't closed my eyes yet since I got back home. I was having migraines but I refused to eat Panadols. Yes, phobia still lingering in me man. Now B is going to be real mad at me man. Especially when he knows that I have been onlining since 7 in the morning already. Yes, approximately 3 hours already kan? *muke selambe*

Okay so will be going back today after going to this jempotan behind sister's block... Banyak mat. -.-

Fluffy has been very restless cause we kept him hungry. Not that we are abusing him or what, but it can't be over-eating kan. I think I know the reason why it's always hungry. Cause he never say the prayers before eating! Lolol. Heh, sekali die betol betol bace eh. Terperanjat berok siak aku nanti. Tsk!

Anyway, I know Taqi is going to love the current song playing on my eljay. Heh. Speaking of which, it's been a long time since I've chatted with him. He's computer's down and it's fcuking hard to keep in contact with him. Hello dude, if you're reading, do talk to me when you're free. I've got loads to stuff you, you know. ;D

After what had happened, I am promising myself not to be a copycat. I definitely do now want to be like that fat bitch. And no, she's not giving in to us. I was having great times with my sister yesterday when that fat bitch actually ruined it all by calling me and we had this convo fight. She scold me like hell and she said to me that I'm just a second-hand person cause it's between her and Norah. She doesn't even have the tits to come down either to Marsiling/Hillgrove/Adelphi. And she's acting like one big motherfcuking assfcuking asshole to me. She doesn't even know where the hell is Cermin/4stick. Pfffff. I would really love to see a pole up your vagina, low-life whore!

Yes, I'm contented. I've finally ask Seed for help. Thank you very very much eh! =D

( To the world, you might be one person, but to me, you mean the world. )

Now now. If you're wondering what's up with the previous post regarding Noraa Wiliams, visit me here.

It's been real hectic today. Nevertheless, a source of entertainment had just been made today. It's plain ridiculous.


I would like to say sorry for my previous post. I feel dumb to be posting all about him again. I know I should let go, but it seems like actions are very very hard to perform. Actions speak louder than words, yes. I'm sorry.

I promise myself not to be like this damn sore poser ever again. I've learnt my lesson.

I'll blog more tomorrow. Or maybe the day after. Or maybe whenever. I'm tired of all these. I'm sick and tired of it all. Is this the price I get after all I've done for all?

Yes, love means letting go. I'm doing it. I'm succeeding. But why sometimes people have to be so fcuking selfish and let me get into my old self?

My leg is sucking big time man. Screw whoever who threw that steel rod to my leg. It fcuking hurts. But nevermind, I'm Supergirl. Nothing's painful kaaan? *sniggers* If I know who the fcuk you are, I'm gonna sue you big time man. Grr.

Band ended super late today. Ok tidak, it always end late. I pity students who live far far away man. Haaa. Plus, if you're in the first express class or something. I wonder where they find enough time to actually revise, do homework, eat and all. Totally no relaxation siak. Tsk! Anyway, I've already known the new BM and DM for next year. Very surprising eh.. I mean, Sabreena ought to be the Band Major siak. Nyeh~

I'm done. I want to do my Mathematics homework but it seems that I forgot to bring home my textbook. Yes, very good job done. Well done Syimah. Luckily I need to pass it up by Thursday. So Imma finish my Geography and get on to reading.

I still have yet to lay my hands on the Ayat Ayat Cinta novel. Hmphf.

I've made up my mind. I'm getting another piercing. I'm just waiting for money to come to me. Lol. (:

I'm jealous. Of you, you and you.
They suck. Grr.

It's no use. Everyone's talking about everyone anyway.

Lastly,

Nevermind about that. I wore temporary tattoos today but got caught by Ms Siew and she began checking everybody's legs. Screw her laa. I like my tattoos man. Lol. Met Ms Kwek after school to get money. Gf treated me Bubble tea and OCK. Went to Westmall after that to buy the tidbits. Saw Haziq but didn't notice Achikstar was beside him till he walked past us. They practically said hi after we went into the shop and it was just dumb. Went Lot 1. Walked and walked till finally, we bought this very nice paw pillow. Very out of the box eh. Tried searching for a nice card but Lot 1 sucks, so we trained back to Westmall and bought a plain card there. I am very much flabbergasted to found out that a nice card could cost you 10 over bucks. Fcuking unreasonable. Anyway, we got this free Voodoo in a bottle thingy. So me and Gf went up into the block near Westmall (heheh, kite tak buat pape k) and played with it. I got the yellow one and it says, "A surprising good news today." Err? So far, tak der pape pon. Lol. It gets freaky laa by the time. I mean, of course you can't believe it kan. Tsk. But it's very fun to play with. Asked Gf to bring along tomorrow to school.


Tonight is the Singapore VS Brazil soccer match or something. It's not like I'm lazy to go, just that I got no freaking money to spare. Screw lah sial, especially B. Grr. Haha k tak baek nyer aku. Anyway, go Singapore!

I am actually supposed to be doing my composition but I'm facing my lappy. Grr, lappy should be burn man! Lol. I'm going to die tomorrow. S.H.I.T.

I'm sweet-talking my Sister into getting me a DSLR camera. I don't heck care whether it's going to be a Nikon or a Canon one. I badly need a very good, decent camera. Pretty pretty please with a cherry on top?


P/s: A month just pass by eh Rascal! =D

Was in a rush today to meet Gf cause I thought it started at 1430 hours when it actually starts half and hour earlier. So I quickly meet up with Gf and we headed to Bukit Batok East CC. Met Noi, Taufiq, Ariq and I don't know who. The talk was very enriching. Hot guys with tattoos were also there. The Ustaz was a very young man. Regretted somehow that my mummy wasn't there cause it's a very good talk for her laa. I think it all revolves around Psychology. I like it man. Fir's father, Uncle Zin was also there with the GOH, Dr Halimah Yacob. Somehow, it's a rather good talk and I strongly advise them to organised another one like this.

There goes my chances of making a butterfly tattoo near my tits. LOL, ok tidak. There's this guy who made a tattoo near his back neck with Allah's name written on it. Dah sah berdose. Tsk. But the guy's hot lei. LOL.

Accompanied Gf to meet her ex. I went off soon. I wanted to do my homework from yesterday, but now my semangat-ness already fade. How lei? Don't care lor.

Yes, I'm depressed. I really don't know what to do. I'm stuck. I'm confused on whether to still hold on or to give up. I don't want to keep holding on cause it kills me minute by minute, but I just can't let go cause this is what that keeps me from falling apart and giving up will be just plainly making me a total failure and a sore loser.

I love you, period.

I'm sick. This sucks. I've been coughing and coughing and sneezing and having sudden-attack-migraines and I felt giddy. I've been feeling unwell and restless for these past few days. I'm suspected to have depression. Now fcuk that shit. Mum has been real nice to me but also firm. She have been forcing me to eat medicines and stuffs and asked me to just rest home although I know she badly wanted me to accompany her tonight. I'm sorry.


Went RP today for this Jaluran Seni. It's wonderful, although there were alot of dancing and that really sucks. I was on the verge, okay no, slept only for 5 minutes in the auditorium cause it was kinda boring at some parts and it's so cold, it just felt too good to be sleeping. They were celebrities you know. Now screw that Tok Slampit or the guy who acts in Anak Metropolitan who's role was to steal lady's undergarments for calling Beyonce, Biol-seh. Haaaaaa! Many schools were there, Primary and Secondary all mix up together. The dancers were lovely and I saw some of them familiar, duhh. -.- Now I hope I can get into Malay dance in Poly. Wooooo. Haha semangat seminit jer. Later malas. Lol, okay no. Hopefully, the passion for dancing in me will rise. Seeing them dance reminds me of SYF. I miss it. Next year my school will be having ours. I'm officially not in. I'm not saying I'm regretting it, but why does good things happened when I'm not around? My school dance is okay right now cause the instructor's been changed to a better one. Which also gives a simple meaning that they will be no more stupid costumes from now on. =l


Went KFC after that with Gf, Fiqqy and Eera. Fiqqy went off first and the remaining three of us went on a present hunt for Gf for the Band's gift. I went berserk and you should see how Gf and Eera were irritated by me. Heheh. Then we got kinda high in the toilet and Gf was taking stupid, censored pictures of me constipating. Luckily she didn't snap my face though. Heeheeeee. We were still not satisfied with the limited stuffs available at Westmall, so we trained to Lot 1. Eera dropped of at Gombak. Walked around Lot 1. Gf bought this fake tattoos. I want to buy another care bear and that very very very nice tee. I still have yet to purchase my novel. Gf found the perfect gift. FINALLY TAU. Trained back home and I was on the verge of puking my lungs out man.

Now now, I have to start thinking far already. In 2 months' time, the Secondary 4Es are taking their major exams, the O level. Although I know mine's going to be a year more, but I should like, you know, start panicking already? To be frank, I have not even think about being a Secondary 4 student. Yes, I am still struggling this year. I know that I have to die die pass my English and 2 other subjects no matter what. And this sucks cause I'm not even there. Not even half way there. I have been totally slacking my way through classes like a complete log. I know I should buck up and all but I just can't seem to... Okay this leads to nowhere.

I need to study. I really really need to study. I will not let people down and I'll prove people wrong. I may be a useless fcuking bitch but I am certainly not a bimbo. I am scared cause I don't have any tuition and I know I'm not an independent learner. Anyone who would like to tutor me? Preferably ladies please. I seriously, definitely can't concentrate with guys around man. Yeap, what the fcuking hell kan. Ok shut the fcuk up.

I am thinking of going Millenia Institute instead of Poly. I don't know. I don't want to enroll myself in Nanyang Poly mainly because it doesn't have BMI. Definitely not Republic Poly cause it sucks. I want Temasek Poly. But it's far. But nevermind. Can meet B everyday seh. Woo. But Singapore Poly sounds ok. I like cause it's near the MRT station. Heheh so convenient man. I want to take Psychology Course seh. But it's the hottest course currently and definitely low chances for me to get it, unless there's a miracle which I doubt it won't happen unless I make it real.

I just happened to realise that I'm meeting Gf for the whole week already. Haaaaa. See? Kalah matae. Lol.

Most of the people are now maybe currently busy with gigs going on. Yes, there's a lot of gigs today. I know Azhar would be disappointed in me for not going. I'm sorry dude. =/

( Warning: Strictly not for kids under 15 years of age/the heart failure or whatever shits that is/horny guys and other people who goes along with it. )

I'm having this small tiff with B. I don't fcuking know what's wrong with him. Or is it me? Now do you still want this big-headed bitch?

I feel bitchy. Now treat me with royalty.

It's true. People are fcuking selfish and self-centered. I hate this. I wonder how long I can keep up with all these things that are happening around me. I feel like bursting up and shout to the whole world how sucky everybody are. It's true, no use denying the fact. I feel like crying. I have been keeping things to myself these days, forcing myself to just bottle up everything I had in mind to stay just inside me and not letting it out to anybody cause when I do, it's just plain useless. I am sick of all these. I am pissed at myself. Too pissed till I cry silently. I feel like people around me are just slipping through my fingers and no one cares. I feel like I'm losing everything by the minute. I'm not saying I'm perfect, but please, try not playing God when you yourself ain't perfect.

Why not you listen to both sides of the story before concluding that I'm in the wrong? Yes, it's my fault for not trying hard enough but do you really think it's an easy task? Easier said than done, that is. Why do people have to be so bias? Why am I always at fault when I didn't even did a single thing?

In all my life, I have been simply letting myself act as if I'm a loser. I put people's happiness before mine. Now tell me I don't? I'm selfish? After what I've done in my whole lifetime, you're considering me as such a useless bitch? I'm not worthy am I?

Now you tell me, have you ever spare a thought on me, thinking about my happiness and stuffs? Do you think I want to suffer when all I want right now was just happiness? Do you pity me, after what I've gone through? Do you think I want to be such a sore loser in life?

Now no questions from anyone will be answered. Why I'm posting this up, it's none of your business. I write, you read. Don't like? Fcuk off.

First period today was Mother Tongue. Was busy doing filing. After which was Geography, which reminds me of Mr Bambang telling me to say Geography with style. Wth? It's a real surprise to know that Gf and me is starting to like Geography much. I now have confidence in passing my Geography if I put in a little more extra efforts. After that was assembly. I like singing to our school song, yes yes. =D Anyway, today's assembly was about the students who went to Japan. Coolshit I'm telling you. I wanna go there. Hopefully, next year. And it somehow reminds me of last week's assembly where Ali Anugerah came to our school and performed. His show was wonderful and he's funny macam sial. Haha and he's handsome siol! Woo~ Okay sidetrack. Met Noi on recess time to get the tickets for this Sunday. Thank you Gf for paying for me up first. And we were kinda late (a little only) for POA class cause Gf went to meet up with Mdm Khong (Sak Kok! XD) and yes, she talks like there's no tomorrow. POA was a bit draggy and next was English which we can't stop bullying Eyra and her fringe. Heeeheeeeee baek per fringe girl? XD Last period was CME and we have to do this group work shit. Norah can't stop laughing her tits out when I kinda snorted. -_______-"

After school went to helped Mdm Ramna for the files. There was a lot of work to be done. I was with Gf, Eyra, Hafika, Shalina and Nadiah with another group of 3A students. Gf went off first cause of band. Watched band's fall-in for awhile after that. I can count upon my luck for not joining band. *kening naek turon* I talked to Marcus for awhile (although I'm actually not allowed to). So pitiful cause he was just alone having detention and no one was accompanying him and he was doing his homework. Macam loner kan? So I just talked to him about random stuffs and he thought I was in band. -.-"""

B and Zappa wanted to meet up today but I was feeling kinda giddy, so I went back home. Sorry yeah? Especially to Zappa cause I was late in giving my answers and all, heh.

D&T today was like any other lessons. All I did was to just slacked. I haven't even started cutting my piece of wood. Syimah forever lazy uh k? After that was P.E. Was burning fats by playing the badminton as well as gaining fats by laughing and laughing non-stop. After that was Physics. I got a new watch cause it's belong to no one. Baek per? Adidas dok. Only it looks ugly cause of it's colour. But nevermind. After recess was Chemistry. Mr Tam was being an ass. But nevermind cause the test was okay. I was cheating also, so no point thinking about it. Tsk! After which was Mathematics. Mrs Tan was pissed at us. No doubts, everytime her class, we won't be giving our full attention. Had 3 periods instead of 2.

Okay after school followed Gf to meet Ms Kwek. And guess who I saw? Mr Trevor Lee uh siol! WOOOOOO. Ini case mesti blog punye ah k. He was so handsome, so freaking handsome and he was smiling and I felt like running up to him and kiss him and and and...

Ok stop. He said, "Hi, long time no see huh!" Wooooooo, I was smiling from ear to ear and Gf and Dian was practically watching the both of us and and and...

Omg, I sound so obsessive. Lol. He died his jambol brown. Wooooooooo! He's the reason why I'm in love with Superman. <3

Ok I can't stop thinking about him now. *jumps around like a mad woman*

Uh-huh so anyway, we went to the library for awhile and borrowed malay novels. Like finally. Went Jurong library after that. Then went to LJS for our supper. Laughed like mad people.

Dah dah dah. Sleepy man.

Anyway anyway, I'm tired of blogging about school. Like no life like that. I wish I'm working. Hahahahahahahhahahahah dah byeeeeeeeeee~

I don't understand why people's treating me the way they are now. What wrong had I done? Is it all my fault?
Yes, I was too gullible to be going on the second time round with it. Tell me I'm wrong. Tell me I'm dumb. Tell me I'm stupid. Just name whatever you want it to be. All I wanted was the love of someone whom I had been craving for. And now, you're telling me that I'm the cause of all these now? Wow, I'm amazed. Great huh.

I hope bro wouldn't sell my Nokia phone. It contains very much valuable memories to me. He had taken back his MP3 and I'm left with nothing. Bloody hell. Mum had left me all alone with daddy today. She went to JB without even informing me. Ah baek per? Pfft.

Rained in the morning. After reading session was Chemistry. Teacher was wasting time by arranging the seats and all. I thought only female teachers ngade-ngade but it turns out that Mr Tam is no different. Then it was English. Of course it was freaking obvious that Mdm Chen was treating me differently since the last incident about my phone. Oh puh-lease, if you think I'm still dreading about it, then screw that shit yea? Then it was Geography. Ah yela, Gf peh favourite subject. Why? Cause the teacher's mine (minusing off the Band thingy k). Ms Wang left us last week. Mr Chua took over and in simple words; class was dope. I was rushing for the toilet during recess time. It was a chilly weather which leads us to having go to the toilet more often, so you could imagine how packed the toilet was. Of course, there's this girl who took such a long time in this cubicle and when I went in, smelled so strong of cigarettes and the fcuking toilet was dirty with urines and blood. Disgusting much? Urgh. After recess was Mother Tongue. Mdm Ramna didn't came so we were combined with the other class and they were doing this class test while we were given this particular assignment on our reflection on tattoos. I write a whole lot of rubbish. After which was POA and Ms Zhang helped me with this cash book shit cause I didn't attend the last lesson. Geography was okay.

Stayed back for awhile after school with Gf. Watched some of the band members played their piece.

Now now now, I need a new bag. Pleaseeeee. *puppy dog's eyes*

And and it comes to my attention that Myra is so damn lucky eh! Pheewiiiiiiiiiiiiiit. I jealous laaaaaa! Haha ok tomorrow she'll know what I mean. *kening up and down*

( Cause I'm bored. )

I am currently addicted to this Sudoku game in my celly. Yeap, I downloaded it myself. I'll be playing it in the dark at night while messaging B and slowly leads me to having sleepy eyes and sleep without even replying to B's text. Heh, sorry.

I went home today early today cause I was sick. I vomitted and the Indian teacher was being a bitch to me. Whatever. I have to take out my ear stud. Pfft. It hurts macam ape siak. Hmmm. Anyway, today is Racial Harmony day and most of the people were wearing traditional clothes. Very colourful ok. Took pictures (I didn't) and so on. I was killing time in the office till I can just die right there. Mum came a bit late as she was working. Thank you Eyra for the hug before I left. <3


Yesterday, I went to meet up with that yellow-shirt cherry chocolate coated girl. Lol. We went to collect her things first and went Vivo for our breakfast. I like. Sorry if somehow you day turns out bad. Anyway, she left and I met up with Sister and we went shopping. I still can't get that watch I wanted. Nevermind, I want the Adidas red watch, please. Heh. I bought black ring already. Woo. Walked around till our feet got sore and ate chocolates. Went to collect the things there and went to buy a cake for my mummy.

I wanted to go and buy something for mummy tomorrow but I'm sick and can't get my ass of the house. Grr. Toooooooo bad. Mummy received presents yesterday and we had this small dinner here. The cake we bought was delicious. I loike. Too bad it's only a little lor. Hmphf.

Sister is planning to open up a bank account for me. I want an ATM card but there would be a little problem as it needs parent's consent. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

See? I'm bored. Bloody hell.


Ah yes, I've apologised to Darfy herself. I know it was my mistake and she was assuring me that she had forgiven me already and I promised her that I won't do it again. I was quite surprised when she asked me about this particular question at first, but if the intention is to tell Rockstar himself about it, then I just rest my case. (:

To actually know that I'm having bad bad luck all along. I am so wrong. In just a day, I get to have a Sony Ericsson cyber-shot phone which I am using temporarily. I got a spectacle finally. I got happy wappy sunshines surrounding me who never fails to make me laugh and smile although they can be such a pain in the ass sometimes. I witness them buying hamsters today and they're really a cute couple. Looking at them mate makes me horny. =X
Fluffy can just sense that there is another pet that we favoured more than it and became somehow lonely. Don't worry, you'll always be my Boyfriend k. Yes, it's a male yo. It look somehow fat and it's only a week since I saw it. Whatever. I like you ehh. Hamsters are such chomel creatures man. Woo. I don't care. By the time the couple got 3 children already, I am asking Sister for one of it. And I wanna keep it. I want a male. Lol. K dah merepek.

In case you're wondering why I'm using my sister's cyber-shot phone currently, it's because I got caught using the phone in class yesterday. It's my fault, so no point whining. I have really no time to get over the loss of my phone for a month, considering the fact that I can live without a phone cause I got my mp3 already. But I can't possibly forget about that fcuking LG phone cause it's my daddy's one man. I have to get it back no matter what. Blame me for not bringing the other Nokia shitty phone. Cb kan aku? Nevermind, no worries. I've got a whole lot of spare phones. Sister bought a new Cyber-shot phone and I lovey love the camera man. But I envy brother-in-law the most lor. He bought himself a new celly. Nokia N95. Scew him. And to think that he still owes me Starbucks. Pfft.

I have to thank Mdm Chen for not taking my SIM card away. She's kind. Although I dislike her attitudes sometimes. But tell me, which teacher doesn't have attitudes? Okay I know one.... If you're thinking about Mr Raymond Chow, then I'll definitely agree with you. *guffaws*

I am overnighting at Sister's crib cause I got my own reasons. Yes, ade udang di sebalik batu. I hope I can make it tomorrow with Gf. Sadly, I can't be spending with her much time cause aunties and uncles are coming down my crib for my mummy's birthday surprise (although mummy's birthday isn't tomorrow). I still have not bought anything for her. Now, screw me.

I need to get a straight-cut jeans man. Badly. Someone buy it for me please? I promise I'll do whatever it takes ok. Lol. I am thinking to throw away my skinnies. The zip keeps unzipping itself. I don't like.

And I'm part of a new business.. Which is yet open. Lol. Will talk more soon. I'm having supper soon. Hungry siol. Ok dah.

I am bloody fatigue. Too much to talk about.


I stayed back just to catch this. I like it, even though I was on the verge of giving up cause I was bloody tired and Mr Chua kept pestering me to go home. I know I shouldn't but he assured me that I may be having a chance to watch it cause he's the organiser. I was reluctant and still wanted to catch the first time Gf conduct. The concert was a bit turn off. I prefer last year's. Whatever. Now I wish I'm performing. Anyway, speech day this Saturday. (:

Hmm. Anyway, mumsy's birthday's coming and I really don't know what to buy for her. Sister had already purchased her presents worth 70 bucks in all. I don't know what to give her lehh. I'm tight on cash man. Even brother. Ok I doubt brother's even going to give her anything. Eh wait, I think he doesn't even remembers her birthday! Tsk! *sniggers*

Ok I'll update more tomorrow. Imma give in to my eyes which is currently berg. Lol.


Goody good night people! (:

It just occured to me that I'll be lost without Gf. I'll be silly. I'll be whatever you name it. Simple reason being my mind and heart is not with me, literally. Whatever. I love her no matter how much she have to hate me. That's it.

I hurt my mouth while I was playing Captain's ball just now for P.E. Ganas per Norah? The ball practically hit me straight into the face and tears started forming in my eyes. Kept bleeding in the toilet and I have to use loads and loads of water to wash it all off. Luckily, I was fine and kept on playing. So now, my lips is like a nigga/Angelina Jolie. HAHAHA OK TIDAK. Only it hurts when I eat or drink hot water. Lawl. By the way, Angelina Jolie's lips are the sex man. I loike! Woo~ And bloody hell no, Mrs Tan and Mdm Khong DO NOT look like her ok? Mrs Loh would be a nice victim. (:

Mathematics sucks today. I can't believe that Imma say this but I have to; I prefer Mrs Tan rather than that bloody relieve teacher who's name is also Mr Tan. Wtfcuk man, I thought only female teachers are very ngade-ngade, but it turns out that old people like him also doesn't make any difference. Pfft. At the age of yours, Mr Tan, I suggest, why not you screw a lightbulb or something? Rather than to be a teacher? _l_

Treated Gf to waffles after school. Went Uncle Tidbits and we bought the wrong snacks. Taste so awful. What's more, it costs us 2 bucks. Suar betol! Lepak at McDonalds and crap alot. Did a little bit of our homework and cuci mate. (LOLOL!)

I'm having alot alot of problems now and I am seriously stress. I may be having exams depression soon and I'm only fifteen. *gasps*
I don't want to have white hair man. Hmmkay..

Money really talks in this world ay? The world's eating itself up. Simple words, we are eating ourselves out.

Lastly, help me man! I am still deciding whether to buy a new phone or MP3. Of course, I would choose a celly. Because why? My celly is the worst ok? Don't ask. I may be getting myself a Red N75. Yes, the flip phone. Somehow, it looks like pink. But it's a flip phone and I have the tendency to flip and flip and flip. Cb. I am planning to get the red Sony Ericsson W660i. It looks good and it's red. Yes, I'm looking for a red phone (not because of Mathematics' file's red k? =.=). I think it's nice and sexy. Woo. Or maybe pink. The Sony Ericsson's W580i. It's a pink limited edition. But it's a slide phone and I have the tendency to slide and slide and slide. Lol. Ok see? So fickle-minded.

So help me. What to choose lehh? Lol. I want an MP3 player but I also need a decent camera and my current phone's picture quality seriously can suck dildos. Fcuker.

Sister is planning to rent one of her rooms. I'm thinking the negatives. Yes, I'm a pessimistic, so? I mean, you have to think of the consequences whaat. Of course, it would be easy cash. But the negative effects? The major problems (to me) would be, what if the person's somekind of bomoh or whatever shits and then they'll be a ghosts in my Sister's house or something? Not trying to get myself paranoid here, but they could be possibilities kaaaan? I don't like seh! Pfffffft. I am currently asking Sister to reconsider it very very very (thousand times more) carefully over this issue.

Brother's outta job. Tight on cash. Even me. Eh cb. _l_

My ears are officially swollen. It's grotesquely swollen red and it fcuking hurts. I'm having very restless nights, because of this. Fcuk. And I just found out that even my Sister and mummy have more than two holes. So much for thinking that I'm the only 'Little Miss Daring' in the family. -__________-"



P/s: Thanks Norah and Myra for being there for me.
Pp/s: I miss you. =/

I am disappointed in myself. I don't know how the hell did I land myself in such state. I need a breakthrough.

Today is like any other days which is filled with laughters and more laughters. I love my Girlfriend and you can't do anything about that. And yes, stop calling her a cheap whore. So what if she's one? I don't see how this affects you. So just shut the fcuk up.

I had another round of Hot Fudge Sundae and it's not like any other because I added chocolate rice topping today to cool myself down and relaxed with having tummy-bursting laughters with Girlfriend. Walked around the whole Westmall. We got crazy over books and more books. Now I wish I'm rich.

Things to get: -

• Novels. All of the greatest novels I saw at Popular and the San bookshop.
• Assessment books. I can't believe I am asking for this but really, it's super gerek to have so many assesment books to do and do and practice with.
• A GAP shirt. Cussy told me the other time that GAP is so popular that every one lady must have at least one GAP shirt. Imma get myself the stripes.
• Apart from the GAP shirt, I must also get a whole new range of clothes. Even my uniforms are tight now. Obviously showing that I am getting fat. -.-""
• Apart from clothes, I also need pants. I am sick of skinnies. At least, I want a straight-cut jeans. Topshop sounds nice. =D
• I also need undergarments (diao -___-""). I want a nice nice bra. I think Pierre Cardin sound right. And nice nice underwear. Although I may not showing it to anybody (except of course, my mum who would be washing it for me or maybe daddy or even bro or Sister, HEH), I still want nice underwear. Hee.
• I also want boxers, yes. Anybody knows where you can get female boxers with laces? Very seductive. I bet my Girlfriends would be even more hornier than now. Uh-huh, stop pinching and touching or FONDLING with me yeah? Very geli. Lol. Ok bedek, I loike. XD
• The coolshit Samsung MP3 player. Best uh. Got bluetooth and all. I want seh. I badly want it. *cheeky smile*
• A new handphone for fcuk's sake. I am sick of the Nokia phone which seems to be such a bitch now. Fcuk it. And I dislike this LG phone. I don't like k. Camera quality sucks! Speaking of which, I just remembered that Gf's phone is going to end it's life soon..
• A new watch. I am still disappointed I didn't get that S$22 watch at Woodlands' pasar malam. But nevermind, Sister informed me yesterday that she saw another nice watch at Vista Point. Imma go down Woodlands on Thurday, hopefully.
• I badly need a spectacle! My eyesight is getting from bad to worse and I need need need to get a spectacle for myself ok!
  
• This is not so important but I would gladly want a camera. Yes, a decent camera. I don't care whether is it a Digicam or EOS or DSLR. Whatever it is, picture quality must be perfect.
• Sidetrack; I want to get a webcam too! Gerek you know!
  
• Which also leads me to wanting to have an Apple laptop like my uncle's which is super nice cause it's a total white or maybe Macbook. Woo.

I am craving for some cheesecake and Starbucks and Mcdonald's and Ben and Jerry and Dunkin Donuts and and and...

And the list goes on. Oh yeah! I also am thinking of putting on braces but mummy say maybe next year when my Brother's married already. Talking about Brother's wedding, I can just feel the heat man. Yep, we're already choosing the settings and all and blablabla. I can't wait. Yep, Brother's getting married, I am feeling excited. I can't wait lorr, seriously. I can't wait for the big day when I can wear very nice nice clothes and have family gatherings again. I like ok. Only that the one's getting married will be Brother, so there may be no chance I can see mak andam doing the make up cause I want to have inspirations. Ok lol. Unless the bride will be doing her make up her which I doubt won't so and and and...

Ok I gotta stop blabbering shits already.

Anyway, I can't wait to get O levels done. By then I'll be a free man. Eh no, woman. I can work and eventually, I can just used my own hardwork money to buy those things above! Wooo! I loike. Ok forget about O levels, this year is already quite tough for me and I've a little confidence that I could get promoted. With my attitude like this, I think it's a definite no. Wtfcuk, buck up please, I beg you, Syimah!

I don't care, by hook or by crook, by the end of this year, end of year's holidays, Imma start working. I want to gain experiences already and I need to earn money rather than to slack like a total log at home and multiply fats. And I can also help mummy in financials already. Heheh.

My ear's sucking big time man. The pain... gaaah! Ok takper. I'm Supergirl. I can withstand any pain ok.
P/s: Fcuk those immitators.

Started off with having PG. Ms Siew didn't come, so Mr Yang was relieving our class. Talk around with Girlfriends. Had the test for Mathematics although Mrs Tan didn't attend class. The teacher also name's Mr Tan. Baek pe? I left out 3 (or more?) questions and slept. Norah didn't even do the whole paper lor, except for the first question. Keep up the good work k? :D

Did presentation for Mother Tongue. I like Ima's group's presentation. Very nice. Maria's group also not bad lehh. (:
After recess was POA. Did test. Didn't have confidence in passing it man. Sigh. Slack betol sial. After POA was Physics. Had class at IT resource room. I charged my MP3 while we surf the net using the goddamn slow computer. After that was Chemistry. I did my assessment book. Social Studies' test is postpone to Thursday. Sometimes, I think Ms Wang is just spoiling us man. Yes, we're really spoiled. Girlfriend went off early for her band *rolls eyes*. I wanted to stayed back to watch the rehearsal, but I'm just too damn lazy. Heh.

My block's lift almost completed. Ok that's a good sign, but somehow, I don't like seh. I mean, I have the goosebumps taking new lifts. Very freaky k, tak bedek. Thank God I live in the third floor, so no need to take the lift. Must exercise more kay, Syimah? -_____-""

Ok that's it. I need to do some revision and I want to eat. I have not been eating since just now and I swear I can hear my tummy growling.

Lily Allen's songs are fcuking niceee. I like.

Hmm. Have a good night people. (: